I’m just going to vent really quick cause it’s late and nobody is on. 

so my dad’s leaving. Actually just packing up and taking off. I have no idea where to and neither does he. He was my best friend, whenever something happened I always went to him, he wasn’t a parent unless he completely had to be, he was clever and weird, but at the same time something about him was so unmistakably sad, it actually hurt. Still does. When my mom was breaking down I just turned to him and he was always just there. I don’t know what I’m going to do to be honest. My mom’s starting to go on a down cycle again because of all of this, I’ve been kicked out on and off for the past two weeks. Next time this happens I won’t have a place to go. I won’t have anybody waiting for me to ring the doorbell. Other people will occupy that house and I’ll just be left alone. I’m so worried about him honestly. I don’t know where he plans to go where it will be better. I don’t know how much I’ll hear from him. I can’t sleep. I’m getting ulcers, migranes every night. I’m failing school, not that this year matters for university anyways but I’m not going to be ready for school when it actually does. I’m average in too many ways. I just … don’t really know. I want to figure things out.

it’s not peer pressure, it’s just your turn